Heidi-Maree Blake

Not the start i hoped for

This is I guess the most clear thing in my mind as to why this raising awareness is so important.... I've experienced a lot of trauma in my life, heck I have done things to try cancel out the pain I carry. For a long while we have suffered so much harassment that it really does impact your mental health, while trying to run a small business and raise a family. My eldest moved off to the big city, he has carried clinical depression for years and years, so I have his depression I carry, my youngest was severely bullied at school, she's 13, she came out of primary school with an eating disorder and suicidal, I carry that on my shoulders and in my heart too.... 2024 I had a major car accident that turned my world upside down. One that I'm still dealing with the impact over a year later, constant pain, restriction of movement in multiple areas of my body, I've been in some dark times.... I need to remind myself that it's in to not be on, but not let it consume me... I had big plans for this fundraiser and awareness, but my eldest baby required a surgery, alone in the city I had to fly down to care for him. Half hour after being discharged from the hospital he had surgery on, we were then in the emergency department of another hospital with severe complications. 3 days in hospital, then we spent 2 days going no where, doing nothing due to the nature of his recovery. So I've not had the start, the kick off to this as I had planned but life, life can change at the drop of a hat. It can threaten to take everything away in an instant. So I'm here, I'm trying to follow through. The air in the city is so much different to the fresh air of the mountains in the far north where I live, that it had been a struggle to breathe properly, and then add the weight of worry and sadness on my chest..... but I'm still doing this and doing my best despite it all..... Photo: lizard on my walk to settle in the patient accommodation for the recovery process. Share